Sitting here on this rainy night, thinking about what it would be like to take a flight, to mars cuz this shit I’m living just can’t be worth giving. Trying to separate my feelings, figure out why i let weak people get me down. I can tell the whole damn time they envy my style, wishing they had my smile, wishing to participate. Trying to get your attention, come see what you been missing. If you could just soften up a little bit. I see you’ve been hurt, let me ease your pain, if only a little bit. Although you’re busy with the ones you love, come see about me have a drink, smoke some tree. My intellect will amaze you, my genius will fill your heart with joy. See cuz I’m feeling your mind, I wanna spend some time…..
These other ones, they’re just here for the ticket, i actually adorn your name, I feel your pain, I too have seen the rain of rejection. When I was a little girl, they called me a monster but i don’t even have to tell you because you know…. you were there in a corner watching from afar. I guess you were waiting to see if I’d retaliate, see if I’d mistake myself, but I didn’t…. went home and wrote to you, I dreamed of you. Why is it though you haven’t come to save me? Why do I have to prove I’m so worthy? You know how i get down, you done been around. Some of those late night times I was acting a clown getting in all sorts of trouble all around town…. We both know what it is though… no one else has to really even know. all I know though is I’m tired, tired of living in misery, I wanna have fun and I want everybody to fucking see.
Told you I was getting better. With that dirty mouth, not one curse word…. I just thinks that’s what makes me so different. so fucking interesting. When
I say some of those words, and they just rolling off of my tonuge, I can picture your voice…. isn’t that fucking crazy? You do it to me though. Hiding off be hind pictures, making me confused and shit, all the damn time, you was so close to me. It took me 27 years to figure out this new language and I know I h ave a lot to learn, but dammit won’t you show me? And I know I’ve said a Lotta bullshit to piss you off, but you know how I get down like I said before. I can handle not being the favorite, but dammit I just wanna be around. I got some shit up my sleeve that gonna make these fools clown. Cuz I get your whole set and stage and shit, so you better watch out when I start planning and scheming and shit, cuz I’m coming for that piece of pie I so fucking deserve. Cuz I don’t give a fuck either, who cares about some fucking worms??
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